Wow its been over a year!

Soooooooooooooo much has changed in a year. Wow. I can't believe that it has been that long. Anyways, I am now dealing with a disease/syndrome/whatever it is called Fibromyalgia. It sucks. I am constantly in pain and can't find much to alleviate it besides yucky narcotics. I'm trying out accupuncture next month so we'll see how that goes. Anyways, will try to post more.

New Year

Well, its a new year. I feel like I'm off to a good start. It has been rough after the break up I just had, but I'm determined to move on and face life as it comes to me. I am grateful for my friends/family in this time. Just reflecting and taking it easy.

Feeling a little better

Well, I am feeling a little bit better today. After the breakup and the disrespect shown by him I am glad to finally be single and cleaning things up. I am excited for the future and whatever it may have for me. I am going to keep my head up and keep on trucking. I appreciate all of the support that I have received. I can tell I have grown in that I don't wish for anything bad to happen to him, but that he has happy endeavors in the future. I wish the same for him as I wish for myself. I choose not to let him have power over me anymore. I am happy joyous and free, but just for today!

Lost

So I know I did the right thing in breaking up with my boyfriend, but why does it have to be so hard. He can't see my point of view. He says he is protecting me by him not getting involved with my friends. My friends are my family. This year I have lost a lot of my true family. All I have left in my family is my dad. Therefore, my friends are my family. He can't see that and doesn't want to meet them so I had to call it quits with him. Also, he doesn't support me in my endeavors with AA or depression medication. These are things I need right now. By not showing me support, its as if I'm in the relationship alone and that is not the way it is supposed to be. He is pissed and that is okay. I can't tell him how to feel, but this is something I have to do and how I have to stand up for myself. I must pick my head up and hold it high as I kept my boundaries and stood firm. It just sucks that this is around the holidays, but I have friends that I will be with on both holidays. Thank God I'm sober and Thank God that I can stand on my own two feet and do it with strength. That is all for now. The feelings are intense, but this too shall pass.

New at this

Hey everyone. I am new at this. I am trying to get a place where I can express myself and kind of be an online journal. I want this to have the raw emotions of life and just be what goes on in my head on paper. More to come later.